#3 Dissenting Identity

My personality type is 100% WOUND TIGHT. I take everything to heart. I worry immensely that every single decision, no matter how minuscule is the absolute right decision.

This has very rarely come in handy in my personal life. It takes me no less than 3 months to decide on something as simple as the type of sunblock or body wash I want to use for my children. It’s freaking crazy.

It comes in heavy waves, usually after I read something online or on social media. It’s one of my biggest pitfalls. I can watch a 10 second Instagram story that causes me to doubt everything I’ve ever believed in.

I attempt to set a priority.

For example, shop small/local/American made when possible. Support businesses that value Godliness and freedom. Avoid businesses who make bold political statements that really don’t work with my values. But also, stay on a budget. And buy non-toxic and organic when possible. But the products need to work well for our family. Also, it’s nice if they can be convenient. Like I don’t have to go out of my way for them.

All of these check boxes force me to do this constant dance of what matters more. It is hard on my budget. It is exhausting on my sanity. And I think I’ve reached the point where I’m really super done with it. It’s worn me down.

So, in making this super flighty and weird public statement, today I’ve decided I’m going to work on it. I’m going to place more value on my joy and sanity than I do on making absolute perfect decisions about things, that in the long run, probably don’t matter that much.

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